Can you believe that I rejected the request for one month extension on my current job???!!! Yes!!! I rejected although I wanted so much to help out, but since the team will split on April 15, I do not see why I should be staying....

I do miss my 1 week in Penang with my new friend, Goo and my HK colleague cum friend, David. But good times really flies...today on a saturday, I am back to my usual gang for coffee at East coast. The usual familiar group whom I spent most of my time with in Singapore.

It is coming 2 months since I travel to my usual favourite Malacca and KL. I have my own stress as now sourcing for maid is first priority. So much clothes not ironed and I have other problem to settle. Earlier in the afternoon, I spent like coming 7 hours at my brother's place, he keep "nagging" about many things undone and keep giving all sort of suggestions to make sure I do it. I shouted at him once, twice, but then I gave out cos I am not suppose to be rude to my elder...sighs...I am like the "monkey god" and when his teacher recite the chant, his head feels like bursting...Try that when my brother begins his "nagging". I always classify my brother as a "kan cheong" spider...why so? Well, spider has 8 legs and when trying to be fast, it is just uncontrollable...or rather try imagining that the legs are applied with some oil...when trying to crawl away in a fast pace...it just slip in all directions...going no where...Yes...nowhere...

Anyway, my style of working is to have a plan first, before I shoot at people or allocating work to the helpers. I do not like to go to individual to get the message sent across. I will prefer to have a meeting to sort out things...Anyway, aside of all these...Weekend is not as fun as usual. Nothing to look forward to at all.

Next thursday to Japan, nothing for me to look forward to. Maybe this time I will spend my time walking around in electronic shop, Uni qlo store and eating the favourite curry rice. It is sort of going back in time to get back the memories of the happy times I had there...

I admit that I am very confident in my job and very proud about my knowledge on what I am doing. But when come to a certain thing in life, I suppose I am not as confident as I should be. Initially, I thought it is pride, but lately I realized that it is a mixture...maybe scare of rejection or maybe scare to receive news on what I hope not to happen...anyway, it is hard to explain. I will grab any chance to chat about anything, but in the end, I still do not have the courage to ask the most important thing of all...sighs...

刘若英 <<我等你>> was played on my itune this morning. Like Joo always KP to me, how come itune know how to select songs one??!!! Always play the songs which suits the mood leh...haha...I agree also leh...