After working and out partying, I am actually still very wide awake at 5.15am. Went to have mee siam at the tanjong pagar train station, all my friends said the mee siam is not nice, very plain. After that, we went to lucky chinatown mac to have breakfast, or I should say I had breakfast and all of them only had drinks.

I am still feeling hungry now...very awake...very sober even I tried gulping down many glasses of vodka...the effect was there earlier, but I am feeling so sober now...

I am known for being very short tempered, stubborn and maybe more than I listed, and of course with the bad points, I have only myself to blame for everything which happened...I tried to savage, but it is impossible...maybe I did not try hard enough..but I felt it is better to leave it in this way as I bring more pain to the concerned person than myself...

Confused, sad, lost...but still have to pretend that nothing had happened..surrounded by many friends, yet I am not feeling at all happy...I suppose I have lost someone important to me...

Think Ah mei's song well describe my feeling earlier...

突然发现站了好久
不知道要往哪走
还不想回家的我
再多人陪只会更寂寞

许多话题关于我
就连我也有听过
我的快乐要被认可
委屈却没有人诉说

夜把心洋葱般剥落
拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候
想你更多

如果你也听说
有没有想过我
想普通交朋友
还是你依然会心疼我

好多好多的话想对你说
悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和
舍不得又无可奈何

如果你也听说
会不会相信我
对流言会附和
还是你知道我还是我

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多
懂我的人就你一个
想到你想起我
胸口依然温柔